Testimonial: The first trimester and its ills

I like to think that all the hormonal upheaval that fertility treatments have caused me has “accustomed” me to living with all these hormones. Throughout my first trimester, I never had heartaches or nausea: I was way too hungry, if I had to not be able to eat anything it would have been terrible! In addition, I have never experienced the fatigue that often characterizes this first trimester. In fact, I never felt pregnant at the beginning of my pregnancy, and surprisingly, I found it difficult. I really wanted to have a bad heart, it would have confirmed to me that it was true. I was so afraid of their growth stopping, of having a miscarriage, or of simply not being pregnant that I was hoping for any symptoms of pregnancy to help me believe it. The wait of 5 weeks between my viability ultrasound and my first follow-up, scheduled for 11^E The week of pregnancy was stressful and stressful for me.

However, I had the misfortune to catch a bad cold around my 8^E week. For you who read me, a small cold may not be much, but when you have CF, it quickly gets out of hand. In addition, when pregnant, you can hardly take any medication to relieve cold symptoms. So, inevitably, this cold went down in my lungs. My CF specialist pneumologist prescribed antibiotics for me. But I resisted, we hear so many stories about antibiotics and pregnancy. I didn't want to take anything that could affect my babies before the 12th^E week. The first 3 months are so critical in the development of babies, that I thought I was doing the right thing by not taking anything...

I spent my nights coughing my life out, and I went to work half-dead every day. When I started to wake up at night and in the morning vomiting secretions, I understood that it could not continue like this (coughing up mucus, you sometimes swallow it, and the stomach fills up, but he protests when he has too much of this kind of viscous food to digest). A friend with CF who had a child a few years ago told me a wise word that stuck in my head: “To have all the energy I need to take good care of my child, I must prioritize my treatments, so that my health is at the best. It is useless to sacrifice yourself, to endure and not to run away out of fear or guilt of transmitting a small deficiency to your child.” At my 9th^E During the week, I started the antibiotics that had been prescribed to me, while making sure that they were not harmful to the fetuses.

As a result, I have made the decision that I will always put my health at the top of my priorities: I want to be there for my children as long as possible.

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